My life is changing and it scares me. Am I equipped to do this on my own?

Soon, I will be leaving the people who know me. The people who know my quirks, who know what's important to me, who know what I like and don't like, and who know my struggles. I suppose there is a season for everything and loneliness is included.

I think the desire to be known is in the heart of every human, particularly the heart of a woman. Maybe that is where our insecurity comes from? Think about it, women were created for relationships. The very first woman was created from man and for man. While man is content to work, woman is content just to be with him. Her desire is the relationship. I think this entails friendships too. I know I cherish my close friends. I find great comfort in them. I often times depend on them.

During my dates with Jesus over the past few weeks, I have been reading Kings. Elijah spends much time alone. The enemy even tries to remind him of just how alone he is. God encourages Elijah though. He reminds him of the remnant that is still there. Just because they aren't in plain sight, doesn't mean they don't exist. Then God brings Elisha into his life. I am a big fan of Elisha. I imagine their friendship was very sweet. They walked together, served the Lord together, and encouraged one another. Eliljah helped equip Elisha for what the Lord was going to do through him. Then God took Elijah and Elisha was left alone.

Both of these great men of the faith had to walk alone. For a short while the Lord allowed them a companion, but not for long. Why would the Lord give and take away? It seems unfair to me. However, what would have happened if they had eachother all along? They would never have known what it was like to be completely dependent on the Lord. They wouldn't have understood that the Lord really is enough. It seems that in order to do great things for the Lord, sometimes you have to walk alone.

Looking through the flesh, this still seems unfair. I have invested four years of my life into my friends only for them to be stripped away from me. I know the truth though. My time spent here was sweet. I learned so much and was encouraged. Now I must walk alone in order to be completely dependant on the Lord; in order to do great things for him. Even though I can't completely understand, this is the Lord's kindness. He knows me and he desires that I know him because there is no greater pleasure.

Psalm 139:1 O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.